I’ve been struggling with my mental health since 9 years old. Because of this my brain I personally feel hasn’t developed the same way as my peers or other regularly healthy people. I have lost a lot of my executive functioning skills over the years. I have been diagnosed with Bipolar, ADHD, Generalized Anxiety disorder, and body dysmorphic disorder. I also may be struggling with OCD, but that is yet to be determined.

I am the mom to a one year old and I constantly need help. I can’t do it alone. I constantly feel like an awful mom because I know I don’t have the ability to take care of my child like most mothers can. This has made me feel completely discouraged and it feels horrible. I know I’m not a good mom and it breaks my heart.

I have no real life skills or ability to complete tasks. And I honestly don’t know what to do. It makes me hate myself because I know I can’t do or accomplish anything in my life. I thought I would be a great mom and I thought being a mom was actually something I could do and feel good about doing, but it’s just made me feel worse about myself and is a constant reminder that I can’t function in society.