So me and my fiance have never had any problems with our sex life until like 3 months ago, nothing has changed, we haven't got into any arguments. We had sex everyday (starting with him eating me out and me giving him a uncompleted blow job interrupted by him) HE ALWAYS CAME, I ALWAYS CAME. We were a matched made in heaven. Here recently things have changed, we have sex like 3 times a month, he's depressed, he resorts to Xanax or weed (which I smoke too for morning sickness) to get him through work or the day in general. HE IS NOT PRESCRIBED XANAX his mom is and she just gives it away. It's especially hard on me because me and him stopped smoking cigarettes, stopped taking Xanax, and stopped smoking so much weed so we can have a healthy baby and now it's like he doesn't care that we are supposed to be in this together. I do a lot of sexual pleasure for him, but I never get any in return. I don't complain because I feel like he'd get mad at me and I don't need any stress this pregnancy. Ive talked to him about it, OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN... but yet nothing has come of it. He rejects me, and it makes me feel like I'm disgusting. I'll apply screen shots.

I sent this yesterday.

He said no in person after I sent the emojis.

I understand I was taking a shit at the time but I told him I'd take a shower, and I did. I still haven't got anything. please give me some advice. I have tried everything.

I should also include in the beginning of our relationship we made an agreement we wouldn't pleasure ourselves as we would have enough sex we wouldn't need to anyways. But that has been broken by me once, he forgave me and I felt really bad and apologized. Then he broke it, but this time I felt upset because not only was I not even a foot away sleeping and he could have woke me up, I had been waiting for a month to have sex (because he just didn't want to) and he jacked off instead TWO DAYS IN A ROW where he could have woke me up. And not even to my pictures he had to watch porn. (which I used to be fine with until he started comparing me to the porn stars, then I felt self conscious and asked him NOT TOLD HIM to not watch porn as I don't like him comparing me to those women knowing I'm not perfect, he agreed he wouldnt. But I caught him jacking off when he thought I was asleep one time... I felt so ugly and unwanted... it's been about a month or 2 but when we have sex now I don't cum he doesn't eat me out...i just don't know anymore. Let me just add this in there, we have had in person conversations about the subject, he either is too high to care or doesn't wanna hear about it