Monday I found out that my best friend of 12 years has bone cancer, and probably only has week(s) left with me. I was completely blindsided by the news, I had taken her to emergency after having 2 prior appts in the past month with no answers but thinking she needed surgery for a torn ligament or tendon. Needless to say I am completely devastated and have cried so much in the past couple days. I’ve had her since I was 22, she was my first dog. I can’t remember my life before her.

My first baby was supposed to meet my first human baby, she was going to be an amazing big sister. I can’t imagine coming home to an empty house every day. We lost our male to liver cancer less than 4 months ago. One thing that helped us cope was having her by our sides. I’m a mess now and I don’t even want to think about what a mess I will be when she lets us know it’s time...

Everyone keeps telling me that I need to be strong for the baby and I get it, I don’t want to hurt my baby, I want to be strong for both of them, but losing Deja, my world, is just so hard for me handle right now, especially with the pregnancy hormones. I just don’t know what to do!