Is it wrong to feel violated even if it wasn’t rape?

2 nights ago I decided to have sex with this guy I’ve known for about a few months. We were both drunk and I consented.. We did it with a condom at first but it became painful as the condom dried up. He kept begging me to take the condom off and finally, out of extremely poor judgement, I let him 🤦🏾‍♀️

I’m so ashamed. I never do this, especially with someone who turned out to be temporary. But I hadn’t had sex in weeks and really thought I could trust him. Later on the next morning he goes thru my phone to find text messages between me and another guy he so called “knows”. He then proceeds to start verbally attacking me, calling me a hoe and dirty for sleeping with him on the first night, without a condom. Said he was going to tell the guy I was texting and that I should just let them “run a train on me”.

I am extremely confident in my womanhood and never allow the opinions of others to shape the way I feel about myself. But this situation was a WHOLE mistake. I feel disgusting for even letting him touch me. It’s like I gave a piece of my soul away just to be degraded and dehumanized by someone who pretended to be so sweet. I haven’t experienced this kind of scenario since I was younger. Obviously he was immature, but still words cut deep. I feel like I been trying so hard to take steps forward towards growth and happiness, and in doing this I just took 3 steps back. Kind words would help me thru this right now. Just need to know I’m not alone♥️