there's always next month...

gah! I'm really trying to keep postitive....over this whole journey. it'll happen when it happens, but man it's tough...every month after two weeks of anticipation... googling...telling yourself to not think about it.. thinking this time feels different. questioning ever little twingle..or butterfly you feel. the day your period is scheduled to appear and you are saying a million silent prayers that this is your time.

I reminded myself of all the positive affirmations. Told myself if it did come today I wasn't going to cry or be sad.

I cried..I did cry..and I still want to cry..