I will be 18 in September, I’ve been miserable since my childhood. My parents my father specifically had high expectations from me from the start. I started off smart and ambitious but since he saw that he set high standards. He entered me in all sorts of learning clubs that at one point were way too advanced for me and made me tired and I lost confidence in learning. When I started failing he did nothing but make me feel like a failure and use the “help” he did against me. I appreciate my parents and I love them I know to him that was his way of trying to be a great father to me. It’s just when living here I cannot be myself. He tries to make me this conservative child of god who doesn’t make mistakes. I stay in my room most of the time trying to avoid arguments with him. He won’t let me drive, he won’t let me get a job. I’m always stuck at home and my curfews 7. I don’t drink,smoke, I go out with friends to eat occasionally. Before they used to track my phone but my mom told him it was unnecessary. I want to move out because all my highschool years I did what he wanted me to do. I’m going to college and I want to make my own decisions. So I don’t live in regret. My fiancée is a chef he works with the #2 chef here in Florida. He’s stable and wants me to get married with him and move out together. I would love to and I think I’d be happiest doing so. He teaches me how to drive he has patience and understands my anxiety problems. I have a scholarship for college so I won’t be needing to pay as long as I keep my grades up. The only thing stopping me is my love for my mother. She wants me to move out when I’ve graduated college and have gotten a job for myself. She doesn’t want me to end up like her. With a husband who basically tells her without him she’d be nothing. I understand where she’s coming from but my fiancée is nothing like my father. I don’t know what to do I’m conflicted. Do I choose my happiness or my family? I know if I leave I will be disowned, I have foreign parents and my mom listens to my father. They also use our religion to hold me back. I’ve been so stressed out and tired. It feels like my days pass by and I don’t get anything done. My life’s just wasting away. I’m also being kept homeschooled by them for college. So I’m really really really sick of my situation.