*possibly triggering*

I can’t figure out what is up with me. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been, and yet possibly the most depressed I’ve ever been all at the same time. I love my boyfriend. I love my baby girl. But I can’t stop thinking about death. I obsessed over my fear of dying eventually, all the time. I think very irrationally about it, and I don’t know how to stop. I’ve been like this before, and I don’t remember what made it go away. My doctor started me on some meds, but it’s only been about 2 weeks and they aren’t working (could take up to 4 weeks to work, or could need an increased dose). I’m bonded with my daughter, but I have very little interest in anything. Death is always on my mind, no matter where I am or what I’m doing. I just want it to stop. I want to be happy without feeling haunted by a fear constantly. I just don’t know what to do anymore