Is staying with him wrong?

I don’t trust my boyfriend but I love him so much and it would hurt me so much to leave him. I just have so many issues trusting him even though he’s been nice to me but now he doesn’t answer as much and he hates calling me or even sending a simple video to me on Snapchat and like he never sounds like his messages are different he used to text me everyday and was so funny and used so many emojis and now it’s like short and like I’m confused bc if you really love someone wouldn’t you want to always talk to them and like make them feel special???!!! I try and like he never does and it hurts me bc I want to feel special if I’m gonna actually put all my effort in this relationship. Idk what he’s doing when he never texts me back after many hours and like I feel like something is off and I try to talk to him and he will say “when I say I love you I mean it” and disregard how I was feeling and changes it up on me every single time and makes me feel like the bad guy. He sent nudes to my friend and he never talked to me about it and got mad at me for trying bc I need that to feel better to possibly move on but idk if it’s worth it anymore but I really don’t want to leave him because I really do love him. I’ve tried to leave before but I couldn’t do it I was so broken. Idk what to even do at this point