I haven’t been able to walk for about a week now and have been in a lot of pain due to a ruptured tendon. I went to the hospital Sunday night in pain. I thought my BF would come and he didn’t. I Look up his location and see he’s at a friends house 30 min after I was admitted into the hospital. He spends the next day with me and leaves because he’s bored. Mind you I was bored af too and we laugh about it but he leaves to his friends house after I asked him to stay. I barely speak to him Tuesday but he checks up on me like 2 or 3 times. The next day he calls me to tell me he’s coming but calls me back to says “ oh babe I’m sorry but I forgot that I told my friend I was going to hangout with him so I’m going to his house and after 4 I’ll go over.” Obviously at this point I start getting upset so I just told him that he didn’t have to come if he didn’t want to that he could stay over there. In a low voice I heard him say “oh I wanted to go see you” and we finished the conversation. He did stay at his friends house. At this point emotionally I’m breaking down. With everything going on I felt like he wasn’t being there for me. He finally comes yesterday and surprises me in the morning. He stayed until 9:30 pm and then again left to his friends house. And tells me if I have anything planned today and that he’s going to the beach with his friend. Turns out he’s going to a beach party which he told me when I asked him about it. Obviously I just snapped. we spoke through the problem and he opened up to me later. Saying that he felt happy because he didn’t do anything this week and had some of his own time. I understood him but how is being with your friends all the time me time? But I understand him. This that’s happening to me right now. I can’t leave the house. I can’t go to the beach. I can’t go work or finish school. I can’t do anything. My life is on hold. I feel literally so depressed that I hold my tears back. I downloaded a therapy app to talk to a therapist because I literally felt useless. I fell alone... it’s everything at once hitting me that idk how I didn’t even have an anxiety attack. Idk how to feel about him not coming or being with his friends all the time and not coming to see me. I’m so in the fence that I just don’t want to think about it. So I just need your opinions and a couple slaps if I’m being stupid. And thank you for those who toke the time to read this. And comment.