Am I crazy?

Question

So I've never really been a porn fan....but sometimes my boyfriend would rather watch porn and jack off than even bother to try to have sex with me. It makes me feel like I'm not good enough or pretty enough for him. And his arguement is that im crazy and have issues and he can do what he wants with his body. Which I agree with the last part. But am I really crazy or have issues because him watching porn and not wanting to have sex with me bothers me? I am 100% ok with it when I just cannot and will not have sex with him due to tired or whatever it is. But I feel like if I'm willing and he wants to get off he should do it with me...

Answer

Look up gaslighting and read about it, and then dump him.
It’s not so much the porn that bothers me. Sometimes I’d rather masturbate than have sex with my boyfriend but we have an amazing relationship and I’m super attracted to him. 
It’s the fact that he invalidates you and calls you crazy. Sounds really toxic to me.

Answer

Sometimes you just wanna get off to porn and not have sex 🤷‍♀️ not everyone is the same sexually. Like my husband WONT watch porn or do it himself at all, and I prefer to watch porn and do things myself. Everyone is different and that shouldn't make you self conscious!