Lets Talk About Sex!

Hey, I'm El, I'm 15 soon to be 16 (legal age of consent in my country) but I'm really scared to have sex and I feel so unfortunately pressured into having it.

I haven't lost my Virginity yet, although the majority of my friends have, a normal school day for me usually has someone coming over and talking about sex and I genuinely hate it! They'll be like 'Me and (Insert generic name here) Had sex on Saturday and we're gonna do it again this Saturday' and I'm always curious about it, like why they want to do it and what it's like but I never really ask them.

I hate when people sexualize me in anyway it makes me feel extremely anxious and basically sick...so the thought of myself naked with someone else also naked and them feeling those kinda feelings for me.....basically I'd rather kick a wall with a toothpick under my toenail instead of do 'it'

I had someone say they 'Loved' me and I denied it so many fucking times because I don't like the thought of someone loving me.

Is this normal at all?

Does anyone else fear sex?

Has anyone not lost their virginity?

I'm literally the only person in my friend group (i have like...four friends) who genuinely fears sex!