Heartbroken 😞

Man I’m 6 days late took a test and it was negative. Also it looks like I started now. I saw blood. I am so heartbroken. Me and my fiancé have been trying for 9 months. Then yesterday my brother told me him and his new girlfriend are pregnant and I’m happy for them but at the same time I don’t know I can’t make myself feel or look happy for them. I feel only sad and heartbroken. When he told me I guess I felt numb not happy. All in all I’ve been sad and crying the pass couple of days. I just hope it’s me and my fiancé’s turn soon 😔 I feel like a horrible person feeling like this