Infertility

We have been trying for almost a year now, my fiancé’s brother and his wife just had their baby this morning..I am so jealous and it makes me so sad. Not even just them but everyone I see pregnant or having their little one saddens me because I want to be there I want to be able to have the whole experience. My first child wasn’t planned, I was taken advantage of and I received a beautiful son out of it he is now 3 and I want to have another one so bad I just feel helpless and crazy because I feel jealous. I expressed my worries to my fiancé and he laughed and says I’m overreacting. Which makes me feel even more helpless and crazy.. 😓 sometimes I want to give up. I don’t even want to have sex lately because I don’t want to be able to get my hopes up and then be discouraged again. It’s so easy for girls who don’t even try and girls who actually want kids and want to be a good mother have a hard time.