What does he mean??

So...I met this guy two years ago and we live in different countries. I cannot lie to myself that I like him so so much. He also likes me but is always trying to hide it. Our communication is weird. We meet only two times a year and during the year we keep this balanced communication being careful not to disappear from each other’s life.

He has daddy issues, is shy, has difficulties in expressing his feelings. Meanwhile I am stubborn and scared to speak the truth.

Now since a month I work and live in his country. We live two hours away from each other. When he found out he was surprised and started giving me hints. Like he was thinking about marriage, creating a family, opened up about the relationship with his parents, always referring to me. I asked jokingly if he was proposing to me...He smiled without denying it. It wouldn’t be a bad idea he added. We spent the whole day together, and now unlike like the past two years he is making plans and he is including me in his plans. Asking me when we will meet again and more, talking about the special bond we have...or maybe spending new year’s eve together.

During these years we’ve met like 6 times, had a very strong attraction for each other and shared some beautiful romantic moments. It was last year he became feeling scared of this ‘relationship’. It’s like we communicate without communicating but still think about each other.

And now I am surprised that I am still in his mind after months of not speaking at all. But I am tired from his hints. Hints hints for everything. I realized I have feelings for him. I can feel the same thing from him. But I don’t know how to act or to understand him. Now that we both live nearby, he is feeling more secure and can imagine me in his life.

And to be honest I am not a long distance relationship person at all. So we are both insecure and stubborn. I don’t know what to do anymore...