I just had my baby 8 days ago. Every single day my mental state seems to be getting worse. I need help... Im still in the hospital because my baby was born with a blood infection. I keep getting reminded by the staff that if i had taken her home she would be gone.. i know it's true, but it's so hard to hear. I am so unhappy. On one side, i feel like i couldn't live without her. On the other side, i feel like she deserves so much better than me. Is there anyone out there who understands what I'm going through?