A few weeks ago I was at a party with a small group of friends. I know all of them quite well and felt comfortable in the company I was with and was planning on spending the night there, so I drank. And I drank a lot. I’m not super petite but I’m a fairly small girl and I weigh around 150 pounds, I had 9 drinks that night and not a lot of food that day, so it’s safe to say I was super drunk. Probably the drunkest person at the party. Eventually a group of us decided to lay out on blankets on the grass and watch the stars, it was cold so we were all cuddled up to each other. Pretty quickly one of my male friends who was cuddling with me started to put his hands on me, first on my stomach under my shirt, the over my bra, then under my bra and up my shorts. At first I wasn’t super bothered by him touching me, we’d always been touchy and cuddly with each other but the further it got even my super drunk self knew something was wrong. And I started to ask about his girlfriend, how she would be pissed, how she would kill me but he just kept saying it’s okay. Eventually the other people in the little cuddle puddle left and it was just me and him. He kept touching me and moved my hand to touch him. We ended up kissing and clothes came off, I honestly don’t remember all of it. Eventually we had sex, and it hurt, but I let it happen. I was completely wasted but I never said no, and I know if I had said no he would’ve stopped but I didn’t. But I also never said yes. When this first happened I thought he was just as drunk as I was, and it was just a drunken mistake. But after talking to other people at the party, no body thinks he was as drunk as we thought. I don’t know if this counts as assault or not or but it really hurts