USELESS!!! I'd prefer not. EMBARRASSMENT!!! Not sure

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Ok so I've got a serious question for everyone. Should my mother be acting like this??(like a child and having tantrums and being verbally abuseive??) I recently had the wonderful opportunity to work at a nursing home. Mind you my mother did NOT help me get this job. She only drove me for the time I worked and I paid her gas money for it.

I worked at this place for week. Now I've never done this sort of thing in the work force before. So I worked for the week and realized I couldn't mentally handle taking care of elderly people. It killed me to see them try to do something one day then realize they can't actually do it anymore. And it made me more depressed to also realize this could be my husband and I in about 60 to 80 yrs. And to think of my husband who is a proud man who never wants to get like, one day become someone who can't do what they used to; breaks my heart so horribly.

By the end of the week I had to call and tell my boss ( whom is a family friend and known my mother for years) that I'm grateful for the opportunity but I felt that someone else could be better suited for the job. I didn't feel as if I could mentally handle that job anymore. BUT BUT when I tell my mother i couldn't handle it mentally, had an anxiety attack in the parking lot at the facility, and told her I quit. She flipped her LID!!!

She has gone on for the past three days telling me I'm an embarrassment because it was her friend that hired me and was counting on me. That im a useless lazy b*tch. Im ungrateful, an idiot, and that she knew i could never do it, and that she should kick me out and that i can go live with my husband.( my husband is military we don't have permision for off post housing, so i can't be with him quite yet) and she has been going on and on about it as if she got me the job and its my fault for everything. Its like mother I would rather not be so emotionally up and down every time i go to work that im on the verge of a break down. Id rather someone who is able to handle that job work there than me who couldn't mentally do it, and even after 1 week of training and pulling doubles i still needed help doing so much around the facility. I dont think its ok at all that shes blowing up and throwing a fit and calling me names over this. I'm depressed as is of course i don't need this from my MOTHER of all people. I feel like she could at least ask me why and try to show me other jobs I could work or suggest industries and things. Instead i feel worse than i do already. I want to sit in bed and cry for hours and just sleep and not move so i don't mess anything else up. But I'm working on this. I just need opinions i guess and and emotion esteem boost. I get it i quit but id rather someone more capable take care of someone elses parents or grandparents. I would if it were mine. And i also have to think of my mental health and that i easily get sad and depressed over things like that (stupid i know) but thats how i am. Just please give an opinion im ranting ( i get if i sound whinny but my mom takes these so out of proportion that it is difficult to explain)