Sick of being right all time...

I am just sick and tired of being right about my husband!! Sick of thinking he will hurt me again and be the same person as he used to and being right about it...

Why did i even stay? After everyone told me how bad this would end, why did i not trust my own instincts about him and just not leave the first time he hurt me? What the hell was I thinking? Was I thinking this would end up as one of these romcom movies where everything turns out positive and great at the end despite the hurt in the beginning. Lol at how stupid i was.

Honestly i see a lot of women here being mad at their husbands for messing up, while i am over here just putting the blame in myself for being soooo pathetic!

Well... at least there was a short timeframe when I actually started seeing change lol but now back to the dark old miserable and familiar days!

I am definitely leaving this time, already found an apartment.