😔😔 I am bleeding again. Meaning I didn't succeed, I'm not pregnant. My family has a history of fertility issues and after my last birth, I feared I wouldn't be able to have more children. I have been trying 8 months now with no luck. I am to the point where I don't tunk I want another baby because I don't think its going to happen. 😔 I also think a baby in my mind will make happier seeing as my whole life has been flipped lately. I am being evicted, I was robbed a month ago by someone close to me after he falsely accused my sons father of a crime getting him arrested and jailed for a few months. I was sexually assaulted by an ex of mine which created horrible rumors cause Im known slut- shamed around town and no one believed I was unconscious at the time of the sex, I am I'm between jobs, making me feel less of a mother cause we are struggling currently, and I know Im depressed. I suffer from bipolar 2, anxiety, depression, PTSD, MPD, ODD, and a few other mental illnesses and don't handle bad things very well. I have scars across my stomach from earlier in the year I sliced my stomach as punishment for not conceiving. I just don't know anymore if I want to try or to give up before I really hurt myself.