I am 40 weeks +2 days

I just had an attempted sweep with my midwife today but my cervix is posterior and was far too painful for the midwife to continue.. she said she couldn't even feel my cervix...

She advised we will try again next week on my next appointment

And I have been booked in for the 9th September to be induced.

I really don't want to be induced... which will mean I can't have the water birth I really want.

I don't want an epidural as that scares me more than Labour

The problem is on the 8th it's my boyfriends little boys birthday who he doesn't see and isn't allowed to see.. But stills pays child maintenance for him.

I just feel like our little girls birthday will be shadowed by his son's birthday all the time...

I feel really sad that I may be induced and not have the hopes of the birth plan I wanted.

I'm so uncomfortable and it seems I am no where near to giving birth yet...

I feel so down and fed up by it all now x