I’m confused this time around... first baby had epidural it was great I did not feel a thing besides 6 stitches after (tiny little pinching feeling) hurt really bad to sit down after and stuff but delivery itself was great super fast, I went into delivery room at 4cm because I started bleeding so I wonder if I ripped because I was too small still or because epidural I couldn’t feel how hard I was pushing so this time I’m unsure if I should give it another shot and hope to not bleed again and dilate to the fullest or if I should just skip epidural to feel everything and control how fast/hard I am pushing,