So. Around May this year, my boyfriend (lets call him 🐶) broke up with me due to-we harmed eachother but it wasn’t intentional at all- iT’S JUST I got very jealous of him spending time with his friends. So I would get mad at him- he would at me, on and on.

So we were only 5 months, almost 6 but ya know. So I started feeling better by July? I started to feel better about myself and forgetting all that shiz. And right now- I’m pretty good, I talked to him- as if we started over again you know? As friends, so none of us have hard feelings or anything and we still support eachother and trust eachother. And- I myself, am looking for someone- because I really like the idea of love and the neccesity- but anyways.

(So there was this girl- lets call her 🍄, so- I had a crush on this other boy, his name is 🐬, and- realized 🍄 and I both liked him- I confessed to 🐬, note this was last year; but still, 🐬ended up getting together with 🍄.

So, you know-sad shit and stuff. Then they broke up bc 🐬 still had feelings for her ex 🐭- and they got together again, leaving 🍄 single and sad)

And yesterday, 🐶 and I werejust talking, ya know, not everyday but, sometimes. And he asked me- if there was a problem if he went out with a girl, and to be honest I WAS SUPER HAPPY FOR THEM! Like- it just made me so happy and excited about that. And I asked him who it was. It was her🍄. I really don’t dislike her- she is really sweet and all-but I used to get angry at her due to she spent time with 🐶. So, I just said it was totally fine. But- then I just. Started remembering everything that he and I used to have and how 🍄 has- literally taken everything I had or everyone- if you could say. And- I swear those moments ago I felt happy, but then I just felt sad, angry, frustrated and-just plain trash. Like how could I start feeling like that all of the sudden? Even if I don’t have feelings for him anymore? I don’t know what to do or think to stop feeling like this.