Loss of baby at 16weeks, uterine rupture

I don’t know what to say or where to start. I told my friends and family the following-

“Monday morning started as any regular day and ended in complete hell. While driving to a meeting, I started feeling what I thought was possibly just an upset stomach, and 20 minutes later found myself in an ambulance en route to UMC. At 16weeks, my uterus had spontaneously ruptured and the baby was floating around living in amongst my organs, causing severe internal bleeding. I’m seriously so thankful for the staff at UMC, especially Dr. Planinic for ultimately saving my life. Unfortunately our baby didn’t get the same opportunity.

We are absolutely devastated over what has happened, but this has truly shown me how many amazing people I have in my life. I am so blessed for our friends and family and all of their help. I can’t even begin to describe how amazing Kirk has been. He showed up as soon as I arrived in the ER and hasn’t left my side since. All of this has shown me what true love really is.

I guess God needed me a little longer, and you right away💕 L.J.H “

I am so grateful that I did not die, I lost nearly all the blood in my body. I’m also grateful that all of my reproductive organs are saved for the most part and that we can try again in 9months. But I feel completely empty inside. All I have left as a physical memory is a huge scar from my belly button down to my pelvic bone. I’m so depressed I don’t know how to cope.

This was my first pregnancy and we had named him and started to decorate his room.

Please tell me it gets better.