Idk....

I just had a mental breakdown... and these demons are trying to get the best of me and my life . I just don’t know what to do anymore... What I’m going through is so not easy. But I promise I will NOT let it break me. Although sometimes I feel broken & empty. I felt like my son was my reason for everything. My reason to live even when I didn’t want to after he passed away. He’s still my reason. He’s not here with me physically, but I cannot go out like that. The suicidal thoughts do come but I can’t let him see me fail. He’s still watching over me . & I know he’s up there saying “Mommy keep pushing. You & Daddy Still Gotta Be Successful & Make Me A Big Brother”. & That We Will Son. Everything I Do Is Not Only For Myself , But For You Too Baby & Your Future Siblings. I love you Boop Boop. 👼🏽 I’m so happy I have God, My family & boyfriend by my side & also my angel baby with me in spirit. ❤️