My baby sister is here visiting she's 1 year old. Even though she's been crying for the entire time she's been here and we've had to listen to the same song on repeat driving me crazy, the minute she fell asleep on me I started to cry because I still want a child so bad and I might never be more than a sister or aunt and it hurts so bad. I just can't come to terms with this fully every time I think about it I start crying. No one around me understands how bad it hurts....