I miss my babies

28 October 2017 the day I did a test and the test was positive me and my husband are very happy.. 1 November 2017 we did a sonar just to be 100% sure the Dr told me I'm 4weeks pregnant and the baby have a good haert beat.. still happy... Getting morning sickness but then something strange happened my morning sickness got so bad I couldn't even drink water going to the Dr they did a sonar and told me Al is good I don't have to wary about anything this was in December.. in February I'm still struggling with this bad morning sickness going back to the clinic for my normal check-up the sister told me I'm on my last part of my pregnancie and need to go for a sonar again and then on 8 March 2018 I had a sonar that was the day I slipped and fell and when they did a sonar they told me I'm having twin baby's and will need to go to the other hospital for more tests.. 3 days later I went for the tests and sonar at the other hospital.. they told me there is something wrong with one of my baby's and I will have to go for a special sonar they only have open space on the 27th of March 2018.. on 21 March 2018 I started to get pains but it was not too bad it was getting worse and on the 23th March 2018 I couldn't handle it anymore so I went to the doctor he told me I had infection later that same day after I got home my water broke and my twins were born..

Not one of them made it.. it was like my heart broken in lots of pieces.. like a nightmare but only to bad it was no nightmare it was real life and I knew I was supposed to be strong but it was not so easy.. we had a funeral for them on 29 March..

I still feel sad today.. and think about them every day..