I'm not good at explaining myself but hear me out please.... at the age of 17(I am now 18)..... -I was in domestic relationship from I was 13 which ended when I was 17..... I turned to drugs and alcohol after we broke up as I didn't no how to cope without him I was with him every day(he was like my drug)I was abused everyday but still didn't want to leave him.. but one day I did... well anyway I took to drugs and alcohol and partying ..... well ..... I was at a party one night at my friends house (she was like 30) but I suppose it was a drug house and where the drugs was I was.. but this one night I hadn't had any drugs just drink ... i invited a 21 year old to have a drink with us and because their was about 5 of us he brought his mate with him 23 year old which was okay and we didn't find anything out of the ordinary we was used to having strangers in the house.... but as soon as the 2 men came over they lifted out a bag of tablets...*lyrica* & *xanax* .... well I thought this was great because we didn't have no drugs so I took a few... after that everything is basically a blur... I just remember they kept giving me more and more... to the point I really didn't know what I was doing as I had alcohol as well.... me and the boy I invited over ended up going to bed together ... We slept with eachother which I barely remember but I know I consented to it ... I was that out of it I fell asleep at the party upstairs in the bedroom NAKED with no blankets over me and so did the boy I was with he was asleep as well but with clothes on!!.... during the night I felt someone touching me which would have needed to been loads to wake me up out of the sleep I fell into to especially with being on the drugs... I'm a heavy sleeper and drugs would have made me an even heavier sleeper... well anyway I woke up to the guy I invited overs mate in the bedroom hanging over me playing with himself ... I was still out of it ... And I fell back to sleep after telling him to get out (stupid I know)... the next day I woke up and just didn't feel right as soon as they left I rung the police and they sent me to get swabs done for dna! and it came back the mans dna of his fingers came back inside me!! so he clearly fingered me while I slept.. I'm not sure if he had done anything else as I barely remember and I fell back to sleep.. but moral of the story is ... is it my fault for falling asleep naked?? I mean how stupid do I look...