I’ve been hurt a lot in the past. I’m a women that wears her heart on my sleeve. Due to never really dating. I never learned how to protect myself from the pain of rejection or how to move on if a guy uses me. I’m still building self confidence which has left me very sensitive to the actions of others.

I recently met this guy who isn’t my type but he was funny and i had fun hanging out with him. However we jumped into sex faster then I’m used to. And now I’ve been sooo scared.

All I can think about is when is he going to leave me, because all men leave once they get what they want. (My thinking). It doesn’t help that when we had sex last time we went raw. In my head all I could think about is how he must think I’m good for a fuck and nothing else, I know this isn’t rational but I’ve just been burnt so much I can’t trust men.

Anyway he txted me last night asking to spend the night and we started flirt texting about sex and when I asked if he could take me out first for dinner for over 2 hours he didn’t text back I assumed he seen me as a booty call and I just feared rejection so I figured it would hurt less if I ended it verse being ghosted.

He got pissed, which I understand. I’m sure he’s done with me.

I feel like shit and I want to build a relationship with this person but it maybe to late he’s not responding to my apology txt messages so I guess I’m single again. I just don’t know how to trust or let men in. I believe they’ll all hurt me.