Okay so I asked my boyfriend to pick me up from work yesterday, you may have already seen that post. So after he tokd me I asked too many questions after I asked him why he would be late i said "hell yeah because i asked in advance" and he said "ik" so i took a BREATHER and just said "alright". He took that as me having an attitude so then he says he'll just see me next week, he's not coming.

This was gonna be his last chance to see me before i go out of town for 4 days. So I went on a rant because he ALWAYS does this. He'll either bring me home early or just not come at all instead of talking about shit he'd rather just not be bothered at all because he's "laid back". And he's pretty much emotionally unavailable because of how he was raised and he was a captain save a hoe and dealt with a bunch of emotionally manipulative hoes so now when someone actually needs him to respond he just doesn't 😑.

Sometimes he'll try to hug me or cuddle me or something, but verbally there is nothing.

And he says he doesn't like to argue but I NEVER TRY TO ARGUE i don't even yell and i always try to find the most considerate way to express myself but he doesn't see the difference between talking and arguing 😑

Anyways this bothers me because we only see each other once a week because of his job. He says he'll just see me when he gets back and it really makes me mad because the one thing i wanted so bad was to see him before i left. Like a kiss or a hug bye. He doesn't understand why I'm upset when he'll see me when i get back but its like we could've spent HOURS TOGETHER yesterday and I could've left on a good note and he doesn't get that.

He always tells me I'm too emotional and nothing is ever as big of a deal as i make it. He says he'll make it up to me but i can't get it off my mind what yesterday could've been if he would've just listened to me when I said i didn't have an attitude and it would hurt not to see him before I left. I don't know of i should act like him or keep doing what I've been doing because there are times when I see him trying but sometimes its just too much.

Like we can joke and laugh and nap together and watch shows together and everything but when we have problems 😒. On top of that i really wanted to have sex before i left because my period is coming 😑