I went to Disney with family the other day for the first time since I lost my baby. Anyone who has ever gone to Disney will know how crowded it is with pregnant women, tiny baby’s, and kids everywhere. I am no one to judge, literally no one. But after losing my baby I can’t help but feel so angry and hurt seeing all these women with swollen belly’s cradling their stomachs as they go on the incredicoaster, splash mountain, guardians of the galaxy, big thunder mountain, Indiana Jones, and just all the big rides there that specifically have the warning signs that say if you are pregnant you shouldn’t go on. I can’t help but feel hurt and angry because here these women are risking their babies lives to get on these rides and they come out fine, baby fine and all. While I avoided every single thing I was supposed to, I wouldn’t go on any rides, I wouldn’t eat anything that could potentially be harmful to my baby, I just did everything right. Yet here I am with empty arms and a hollow belly and broken heart watching all these mothers basically risk their baby’s lives to get on a ride that could potentially hurt their baby’s. I just feel so hurt . Then seeing all these parents let their little ones run off as they sit on their phones not caring whether or not their baby’s get stolen or hurt and it’s just like a big slap in the face. My baby would have been almost 5 months and it’s just getting harder. Once you lose a baby you really see how much people take advantage of being able to have their baby’s . I hate feeling like this, I know it’s not their fault that I lost my baby but I just can’t help but to feel hurt and angry toward others.

Rant over, thank you to whoever listened.