Afraid to test🙈 UPDATE

Has anyone ever felt like this?

My last period was July 30- August 5th. Since then, I’ve had a little spotting and my CM has changed to milky creamy white. My boobs have been sore and HUGE for the last 2 weeks or more. Occasionally my heart rate would speed up and then get back to normal and I experience sporadic cramping like my period is gonna come but it hasn’t up to now. I would get hot flashes and just sit in front of a fan till it subsides (I’m only 29 so it’s not menopause). As I’m typing this I feel a little queasy.🤢

I took a test 2 weeks ago and it was negative.... my period was supposed to start on the 27th of August.... but I’m still waiting... I feel like I am preggers.... but that thought is so satisfying... I’m afraid to test and it’s negative. Sounds silly right?

P.s. I have to test soon because volleyball season starts in a week.... but I’m afraid of a negative. Sigh 😔

Update:

Sooo.... started cramping worse than I have been over the last 2 weeks and also started spotting light brown... turned into light brown and pink and red into red.... if you haven’t guessed by now... AF came 😔 and I also took a PT... was the definition of Negatives. Sigh. Fresh start I guess.