(Sorry long post) Anyone else been/is an absolute mess? Tell me im not alone! Starting day 3 post delivery, i became a bit emotional. Day 4 and 5 i cried over everything. Day 6 i was okay but anxious, and today day 7 anxiety has peaked. I even had a panic/anxiety attack which i never usually have.

Im bonding with my baby, im happy and love her to pieces, i have an amazing partner who is helping me heaps, im just struggling with these heavy feelings that i cant control. And i hate that im feeling them and cant stop them.

I had an early, rushed, traumatic, emergency birth, and none of it was what id planned. My baby stopped moving and i had an emergency cesarean because her heartrate kept dropping, and turned out the cord was wrapped around her ankle 3 times. I think ive struggled with the trauma of it, struggled with not getting the labour i wanted, and struggled with having my pregnancy taken away from me so quickly. My partner wasnt at the birth of our first 7 years ago, and I'd spent so long looking forward to doing this one together, and him understanding what i went through with our first, and feel like that was taken away from me too.

I can identify all these issues, but not sure how to move past them. I have constant worrying thoughts in my head about whooping cough, sids, something happening to the baby or me. And then all these sad and anxious feelings too.

Im going to talk to my doctor about it tomorrow, and am very aware of PND. But i suppose im just hoping to hear of similar situations, other mamas feeling the same, or can tell me im normal and that this is only temporary? Thank you