this app is the only place that I feel a bit better in myself as there is ladies all over the world that will understand how im feeling my heart breaks more and more every month when AF turns up despite trying to get busy at the right times , I just don't think I can take this anymore , I feel so hopeless.... I just want my rainbow baby and I try not to get so obsessed about it but me and my partner have had sex Monday Tues and Wednesday, we didn't do anything last night and tonight when I tried to try it on with him (baring in mind tonight and tomorrow have the highest chances ) all I got was "I've fucked you for the past few nights and I'm having a night off !" Like he's doing me a favour!! & then goes to sleep :( so I'm now currently sat downstairs crying with a bottle of wine , I'm sick of having to put on a brave face when actually I'm dying inside , I just feel like having a baby isn't as important to him as it is to me .