Why do I miss him so much

He lied and cheated but I miss him so much 😔 He’s the only man that I have ever fallen in love with. Problem is he has hurt me and lied to me so many times. Recently it has gotten physical and he was arrested. I moved everything out of our home, including things he acquired before he and I got together. Eventually he’ll go back to our home and see that everything is gone and now I’m starting to feel terrible about this decision. I don’t know what to do anymore 😢.. I took everything wanting him to hurt the way he hurt me. I even threw things away that cannot be replaced. What should I do??