So, I have been super hesitant on posting. I read almost every post and hope that I will find my answer. However, I am starting to lose hope😔.

My husband and I got married last year (09/16/17) but have been together since 2012. We NEVER used protection since day 1 and said “if it happens it happens”! Kind of secretly hoping it would happen. But it never did! Then after we got married we decided to move forward with <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">fertility treatment</a>. I went to my OBGYN, who diagnosed PCOS (for a second time, I was originally diagnosed in 2009) He started me on Metformin (1000mg) and said we would do that for 6 months and if no pregnancy then start the clomid. Fyi* we BD every other day, for maximum chances! About 4 weeks after starting the Metformin, I went back in for the “bubble test” to make sure my tubes weren’t blocked. Everything was clear!!

On July 13th I had my follow up and still no pregnancy. Had my second scan and my PCOS was cleared up on my left ovary! Last month (August 2018) we started the 50mg clomid. Sept. 2, 2018 I got my period... AGAIN! 😞 This Friday I started my second round of clomid (100mg) and starting to lose hope!

It’s been 6 years and NO PREGNANCY! I can not understand what is going wrong? And my husband has gotten 2 other girls pregnant a short time before we met. He has no children as those pregnancies ended up in miscarriages. But I know it’s NOT my husband. All these years I thought it was me! But my OBGYN tells me it’s NOT and there is no reason why I can’t get pregnant. He keeps telling me it will happen soon! When is soon? Is it ever going to happen? Everyone around me is getting pregnant! All these women with PCOS, getting pregnant “right before they start clomid” or “right after the 1st round”. Here I am 35 and running out of time. I am already high risk bc of an autoimmune disease and my OBGYN says after 36 I need to find another option. (Adoption or a surrogacy) All I EVER wanted was to be a mom! All I ever wanted was to birth my OWN CHILD! And there are SO MANY unfit, unqualified, non-maternal, un-employed women out there getting pregnant! Then leaving there kid without food or proper care. There are women beating their kids and leaving them for dead! YET, my husband and I have great jobs, are stable, caring people who would love our child with ALL OUR HEARTS! And be able to provide an amazing life for him/her. And I have not yet been given the gift of motherhood.

Please if anyone has any success stories of Metformin & Clomid combo or idk any hope at all! Please tell me! Because I need a glimmer of hope. I don’t want to give up.