**long read** Porn Addiction Gone Too Far?š¦
*please also note that I do not need any negative comments, as I am going through a hard time already and I need advice on how to get through this
*Things to also take into consideration, I live with him, we are both on the lease, and we have about a year left.
In the beginning of our relationship my boyfriend cheated on me. Not in a physical sense, that I am aware of, but he had a lot of hidden pictures on his phone of a few girls and he was snapping one and conversing with the other on Facebook. The one on Facebook in the few messages I could stand to read it looked like they often made plans to get together and have sex, if it ever happened, I have no idea.
We tried to work it out ourselves for the longest time, and we couldnāt get past it on our own, so a few months back he agreed to counseling. Heās been paying for all of it, and itās been helping me, however I donāt know if itās getting through to him.
He stopped talking to those girls, he blocked them and we both deleted our social media until trust is restored.
I say it isnāt getting through to him because, a few sessions ago I had brought up that I realized since he cut all of those girls off, (I creeped on his search history one day) heās been watching extreme amounts of porn. I mean like hours worth over the course of a week. He watches it when I am not home and at work. We have an above average sex life and I had brought to his attention at counseling that it hurts my feeling in a way that it makes me feel that I do not satisfy him. He assured me it wasnāt that but he couldnāt explain why either.
Now a few weeks later, heās still watching copious amounts of porn, and the final straw for me was that I saw while I had been gone all day last Thursday that he visited a site called āget laid in less than an hourā. I looked into it, and as it sounds you find a local girl who will come and have sex with you. I knew I wouldnāt be able to speak to him about it calmly so I told him I will bring it up at counseling, and he is staying with a work buddy this week.
So he is absolutely unaware that I know.
I donāt know if he actually went through with it, or if thereās an explanation but I feel there is no excuse.
Aside from this issue, our life has been so much better and he actually told me he bought the engagement ring I was eyeing forever a few days before I found this on his phone.
Iām at a loss, Iām in disbelief. I donāt know how to move forward from here. Heās been a huge part of my life and I love him but I canāt keep going through this.
Edit: a lot of you are commenting that I should tell him, as I stated above, I did. And he didnāt do anything differently.
Also, no I do not watch porn, it doesnāt do anything for me, I still masturbate once in awhile but for the most part Iām satisfied with our sex life.
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