**long read** Porn Addiction Gone Too Far?😦

*please also note that I do not need any negative comments, as I am going through a hard time already and I need advice on how to get through this

*Things to also take into consideration, I live with him, we are both on the lease, and we have about a year left.

In the beginning of our relationship my boyfriend cheated on me. Not in a physical sense, that I am aware of, but he had a lot of hidden pictures on his phone of a few girls and he was snapping one and conversing with the other on Facebook. The one on Facebook in the few messages I could stand to read it looked like they often made plans to get together and have sex, if it ever happened, I have no idea.

We tried to work it out ourselves for the longest time, and we couldn’t get past it on our own, so a few months back he agreed to counseling. He’s been paying for all of it, and it’s been helping me, however I don’t know if it’s getting through to him.

He stopped talking to those girls, he blocked them and we both deleted our social media until trust is restored.

I say it isn’t getting through to him because, a few sessions ago I had brought up that I realized since he cut all of those girls off, (I creeped on his search history one day) he’s been watching extreme amounts of porn. I mean like hours worth over the course of a week. He watches it when I am not home and at work. We have an above average sex life and I had brought to his attention at counseling that it hurts my feeling in a way that it makes me feel that I do not satisfy him. He assured me it wasn’t that but he couldn’t explain why either.

Now a few weeks later, he’s still watching copious amounts of porn, and the final straw for me was that I saw while I had been gone all day last Thursday that he visited a site called “get laid in less than an hour”. I looked into it, and as it sounds you find a local girl who will come and have sex with you. I knew I wouldn’t be able to speak to him about it calmly so I told him I will bring it up at counseling, and he is staying with a work buddy this week.

So he is absolutely unaware that I know.

I don’t know if he actually went through with it, or if there’s an explanation but I feel there is no excuse.

Aside from this issue, our life has been so much better and he actually told me he bought the engagement ring I was eyeing forever a few days before I found this on his phone.

I’m at a loss, I’m in disbelief. I don’t know how to move forward from here. He’s been a huge part of my life and I love him but I can’t keep going through this.

Edit: a lot of you are commenting that I should tell him, as I stated above, I did. And he didn’t do anything differently.

Also, no I do not watch porn, it doesn’t do anything for me, I still masturbate once in awhile but for the most part I’m satisfied with our sex life.