Rethinking adoption

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We haven’t picked a family yet but I’ve just been seeing so many signs not to do adoption. For one it’d kill me and I know I don’t matter because it’s what’s best for my baby but I’d go off the deep end for sure. Another thing is I’ve NEVER seen anything on social media or tv about adoptions until I choose adoption and that’s all I see, but Im only seeing adoptions that go bad. When I decided to go with adoption I also got bad cramps and bleeding and had to go to the ER ( baby was fine ) to me that’s also a sign.

I just don’t know what to do because I wanna give my baby the best and I’m terrified I can’t do that because I was never a baby person before I got pregnant.

I need advice