Can’t stop crying don’t know what this means

jordyn

I had my 20 week scan yesterday and was told everything was good accept my baby’s heart which is abnormal I was told I would be referred to fetal cardiology and they will contact me with an appointment. While she was scanning me she stayed on the heart for a while and kept looking over at her colleague trying to get her attention but not trying to make it obvious to me but her colleague wasn’t paying attention she carried on with the scan and again came back to the heart at this point her colleague came over and was looking together and she was talking to her pointing something out which she agreed she could see I asked is there something wrong and she said one on the connections to the heart wasn’t developed properly but she was going to refer me to get a doctor to look at it. I’ve just been left confused and lost not knowing what to do I’ve read my notes and it says the trachea, between the pulmonary artery and the transverse arch. Everything on the report says normal and for the heart says abnormal I can’t find any information about it at all I don’t know what this means I physically feel sick from how much I’ve cried my appointment is tomorrow morning but feels like a life time away I don’t know how I’m going to work today when I just keep breaking down in tears. I just have a million questions and have no one to talk to I just don’t understand there’s never been any issues like this in my family I have to healthy children I had a son which I lost at 20 weeks I’m just thing why and not knowing any information is just driving me crazy I just had to get it all out my system I guess why I’m posting on here I don’t even bl know if I made any sense I just want my baby to be ok.