Today I took another digital test to see if my levels were going up (we don’t have routine blood tests for levels in the UK) and thankfully the test showed 2-3 weeks, as it should.

I initially breathed a sigh of relief but then came the reminder that my last pregnancy did the same thing. For 12 whole weeks I believed our baby was in there growing as it should, only to find out at my first scan that they had stopped growing around 7 weeks.

This time we are having an early scan at 8 weeks (although I feel I will measure a bit smaller due to ovulating 4 days late) but I cannot shake this feeling of sheer terror.

I am trying so hard to stay hopeful and positive but it’s so hard after having a mmc where I had all the good symptoms and ZERO negative ones. It’s just a waiting game right now. And it’s exhausting 😕🌈🤞🏼