My life

So I am a new mom my baby is 3 and a half months old his name is Paxton he is literally my world but lately I have been feeling so shitty about my self because every night once he goes to bed I light up I do it for my anxiety and depression but I feel like it's just gonna,make me seem like a shit mom cause I smoke only once a day might I add I quit when I was pregnant but my sister throws it in my face that I smoke but I never ever get high with my son around nor do I watch him high my husband is completely okay with it as he knows it helps but I guess I'm just letting my sister's words get to me! Pic of my little dude