I’m so nervous. This will be my second marriage. My first marriage ended because he cheated on me. He was my high school sweetheart and we’d been together 13 years and had a baby on the way. I never thought I would love again. I thought he ruined me.

Tomorrow, I’m going to the courthouse and I’m going to marry the most amazing man I’ve ever met.....and I’m scared to death. I wasn’t nervous or scared for my first marriage. I was confident.

I had a wedding, a small wedding, but still a wedding with flowers, decorations, a cake, a wedding dress, and guests. This time, I’m not doing that. I want it to be about us, and only us. I don’t even know if I’ll get any pictures, because we don’t have to have a witness and no one else knows yet.

I can’t get over how scared I am. I know it’s because of what happened before. I also know it is because this time is not like the last. I have cold feet, but I’m not running away. He is, and will continue to be, the best thing that has happened to me, aside from my babies.

I can’t believe we’re getting married tomorrow.