Feeling discouraged

Au

What keeps you going when breastfeeding is really hard? My LO cluster fed 2 weeks straight at four weeks and I think I'm in the middle of another two week stretch at 8-9 weeks. I'm exhausted and don't enjoy breastfeeding to begin with. I see how comforting it is for her, but for me it's always been a practical feeling of "this is how baby gets fed." I just feel like a human bottle and I want my body back. I hit a new low last night and am going to try to make it to 3 months and reassess how I feel before I make any changes. Does it get easier when they are older?