Thinking About Divorce

Laura

I'm at a point in my life where I'm not sure I want to be married to my husband anymore. Our relationship is stressful. He is always gone; claiming he is "working." Never tells me where he has been or going. He may be cheating, I'm not for certain. It doesn't help we are still stuck living with his parents after 3 years of marriage and 1 child together. Don't get me wrong I love his parents, but I want our own place. He is verbally abusive at times. We are financially struggling and he gives his entire paycheck to his father. I work 4 days a week as a housekeeper, go to school part-time, and come home and take care of our daughter, plus laundry and housework. My check has to pay for our personal bills, unless he gets hours at his second job as a part-time firefighter. He always claims to be tired and will sleep up until it is time for him to leave for work. Doesn't help with anything, expects me to drop everything to help him with what he needs. He is more concerned with his firefighting family than his actual family. Gets mad when I'm to tired for sex, but will deny me when I want to have sex. I feel like everyone would be happier if we separated. He always claims if we ever divorced he would get full custody of our daughter. He always threatens me with that. He thinks he is somehow superior to me. I've tried leaving before, but he always ropes me back in with tears and empty promises. I want to do what's best for me and our daughter. I think divorce is a real option all things considering.