I ask myself daily, is this whatever me and this guy have ever going to go anywhere other than just him telling me what I can and can’t do, and I always say no. I know by saying no, it means to LET THE FUUUUUCK GOOOO!!!! But it’s hard.

I ask myself why do I love and care about a guy who is so controlling, won’t let me see my family because he thinks I’m going to do some dumb shit when we are not a couple. But I can’t answer myself why I love and care about him.

How can I just tell myself that I gotta let go with really doing it. Instead of telling myself to go but staying like a total DUMB ASS