Emotionally unsure..

How do you ladies do it? I always thought I’d be good but my best friend just got pregnant, very much an oops, and I can’t find myself feeling excited as much as I should. She has been my best friend since we were very young. I should be rejoicing with her. I just can’t get into it... I feel terrible. I’m excited and happy for her just always in the back of my mind it’s tearing me up inside. Meanwhile I woke up with my period after thinking maybe just maybe this was my month.

I just don’t know how you ladies do it. Sorry for the long post.. just needed to vent!!