Need to feel better about this, and just can’t... first time I had emergency c section. Up until a week ago, my dr said we will go for Vbac and I was excited. Now I’m scheduled for c section next Tuesday. I just want to be normal and have a baby naturally. This has been rough: I had two MCs and dilated for those on my own, during the pregnancy have been diagnosed with a brain tumor, now polyhydramnios in recent weeks. My neurosurgeon said ok to push. I’m not overweight but I’m measuring 44, and I’m 38+ 4, not dilating. I’m bouncing on the ball, walking, stretching, even tried midwives drink without oil. I know outcome is important and trying to keep focused on that but I just want to be normal for once. Im not afraid of recovery as it wasn’t bad for me last time at all.