feeling like I want to punch something!

I am so angry, I am currently 12dpo. positive opk at day 23 with feeling o of day 24. this is a femara cycle and I also have been taking progesterone since after o. around 6-8 dpo I thought I was feeling something positive. I had mild cramping, headaches (migranes), dizziness, nausea and these really weird pinching/electric shock feelings in my uterus and vagina. sorry if tmi. yesterday which was 11dpo I started feeling pain in my nipples and started cramping more. I foolishly thought finally my rainbow! but this morning's test is negative again. I am so mad I honestly just feel the need to punch something. I dont understand why this is so hard, I dont understand why I am forced to watch so many of my friends go through their pregnancies happy and glowing and all I can be is angry I'm not experiencing it with them. (in case you may be wondering, I am insanely happy for my friends just mad at my own situation). When will it be my turn?