I don’t know why today is so hard. I just can’t stop crying. It feels like Eeyore with his grey cloud following him around. I was only around 4-5 weeks when I lost my baby. I had only known for 2 weeks before my miscarriage that I was even pregnant. I feel like it shouldn’t hurt so much, but it does.

I have always had a habit of putting my feelings aside and pushing through whatever negative emotions were in my life, but this time it doesn’t feel like I can do that anymore....

My heart just hurts. I’m snapping at my husband and feel like a terrible wife. I just don’t have the emotional capacity to feign interest in other things. I feel guilty for something I know I had no control over. And I’m ANGRY- my baby was so little and shouldn’t have died. It feels like I failed the first test of motherhood- keeping your baby safe.