I hate to make a depressing post about something that may have been prevented but today I’m very hurt. My “best friend” had her gender reveal today. She apparently invited her family and friends but not me. We’ve always been close, ever since we were little. After high school I moved (only an hour away) for school and work. Ever since then our friendship became more and more distant but we still made time for each other, we were even in each other’s weddings. This past July we were suppose to go to a Shania Twain concert but my husband and I were coming into financial issue so I told her I couldn’t go. I felt horrible because we were planning a girls trip for so long. The same day she told me she was 8 WEEKS pregnant. It made me sad because my husband and I have been TTC for the past year. Even more sad that my best friend is having a baby and our children my not get to grow up together. I didn’t let her see my sadness bc I didn’t want to bring down her excitement. We didn’t talk much after that just because we were both busy with life. This past Tuesday I told her I missed her and she replied we need to get together soon. I told her my new work schedule will be coming out and we can plan something. Then while scrolling through my FB newsfeed today I see her gender reveal video. Then I also see our other friends post, thanking her and her husband for the inviting and sharing this special moment with them.

My heart is broken into a million pieces today.

Perhaps I was blinded by what I thought was our friendship.